THE DAY SHE TOUCHED MY LIFE

                                                                               

 

Destiny works in mysterious and miraculous ways, silently guiding your footsteps to the path meant for you, to learn the life lessons, you came into this world for.

 In June, 1983 I was working as a Medical Officer at Ruby Nelson Hospital, Jalandhar. It was a Monday and we were up to our ears in work, even as early as 9am. A call for me at the reception, (there were no mobiles then.) had me wondering, as I hurried to take it. I was surprised to hear the voice of a dear friend, Mr.D.P.Sehgal, President of The National Thinkers Forum, of which I was the Vice-President, “Hello, please try to reach the church in Jalandhar Cantt. as soon as possible. Mother Teresa is coming to Jalandhar and will be at the church within an hour.”

As President, Lioness Club, Jalandhar along with the office bearers of The Rotary Club, Progressive Thinkers Forum and Jaycee Club, we had managed to get a suitable plot of land, allotted for 'Shanti Bhavan' through the local authorities. All the formalities were complete, buildings had been constructed to suit the needs of the Home, and only the papers had to  be handed over to Mother.

 We had been requesting her for a suitable date. But this visit was sudden and unplanned. I was both excited and hectic, suddenly having to raise the bar in my administrative abilities. I had always been in awe of this saintly crusader but couldn’t believe that I was actually going to meet her in person. Although caught unaware, we rapidly made phone calls, in a chain service and managed to call around 100 people to welcome her.

After praying at the cantonment, she came to the church attached to St. Joseph's Convent, for girls. As she prayed kneeling by the roadside on the graveled foot track, we all kneeled too. A good fifteen minutes elapsed and in those few minutes I was soaked in sweat with the overhead sun showering embers, as the day had advanced. My knees felt sore and I was tired but was embarrassed to shift my position, as I was kneeling right next to Mother. It seemed like sacrilege to do so, with her kneeling so steadily, lost in prayer.

An old frail woman, short and stooping, hunched over but walked with a determined step, as we stood up and I guided her towards the car, to take us further. We had organized a brief inauguration ceremony at the site of the building. There was tea being served along with light refreshments, but Mother did not drink a glass of water even, during all those hours. She always tried to pack in as much service as possible into her day. People filed by, one by one. She smiled lovingly, blessing them and I stood by, waiting patiently.

After everyone had met her, I stepped close to her and asked her, “Mother, is there anything you would like me to do?”

“Can you do two things for me?” said this humble messenger of God in her soft whispering voice. I would have gone to the end of this earth to fulfill any command of hers.

“Please help the sisters get a gas connection. They have many problems cooking for the children on kerosene stoves.”

I was stunned and overwhelmed.

I had booked for an extra gas connection for my hospital and had received the number just a day earlier, after a wait of almost a year, which was the normal procedure during those times. The connection card was in my purse, at that moment. I was surprised, at the simplicity of her demand and her humility. I promised her I would do it immediately, wondering how she had asked for something literally in my hands. At that time I had no understanding about the synchronicity of events, and how the universe conspires to nudge you towards fulfilling certain actions, meant to propel you forwards on your spiritual journey.

“Now, the second thing I want from you is that, you do not conduct abortions. If there are any unwanted children, please give them to me.”

(Conducting MTP’s( medical termination of pregnancy) was an acceptable legal procedure and was being performed by doctors as a routine. I too was doing this, helping my patients get rid of unwanted pregnancies, as well as controlling the burgeoning population of our country. Of course, the main motive was to earn money and the goodwill of my patients. It never struck me that I was perhaps preventing the birth of certain souls that were meant to be on this earth, at that point in time. My conscience would hesitatingly try to raise its head off and on, but I quickly stamped it down with the heel of denial. What ‘Karma’ I was creating, was something I had no time, inclination or awareness to ponder upon.)

 Mother’s words jolted me.  Once again, she had asked me for something that was literally in my hands. I gasped inwardly, nodding my head.

(Even as I write this I am getting goose bumps, remembering the intensity of my emotional turmoil at that moment.)

While I was still trying to recover, as her words sank in, she stepped towards me, holding both my hands in her small bony, gnarled ones and kissed them. I just froze and  that moment is frozen in my memory forever. She had a sparkling twinkle in her smiling crinkled eyes, lighting up her deeply wrinkled, kindly face as she looked up at me. Something inside me shifted at that moment and I never again was the same person.

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Afterword:

I stopped conducting MTP’s after this incidence. Many an unwanted child, born in my hospital, was given to Shanti Bhavan, where I used to look after the children as well as the nuns. These children were quickly adopted by needy couples and my heart fills with joy and peace when I see them leading happy meaningful lives, growing up in a family and blessed with everything.

 A little later I met a severe accident in which I injured my spine and legs and was unable to walk for almost a year. I was forced to give up practicing obstetrics- gynecology, as my back did not allow me the exertion and strain on the back, involved in our work.

Some colleagues asked me to work for them in setting up a new infertility center. It was at this moment I realized, that life had come around full circle.

 Before starting any procedure, I would pray for guidance and thank Mother Teresa for having steered me on to this path. Every patient that conceived was one ‘Karma’ struck off my list; thankfully these hands were blessed with many such happy moments. Some day, some birth, I will have balanced my ‘Karmic’ account sheets hopefully!

 

 

                                   IT DIDN’T RAIN BUT IT POURED

 I had just come home after spending a lovely morning and afternoon with poets, Lily Swarn, Pratima Apte and Smitha, happy and energized.

                                                                

 

Black clouds suddenly came looming over the skyline, threatening to overpower the tall towers of concrete raising their heads, as if to kiss the skies. I stood in my balcony savoring those moments, as I listened to the swishing wind caressing the tall clumps of bamboos growing below. The breeze ruffled my hair, carrying me back to my youth. I thought to myself - ‘my type of a day,’ for I love dark billowing clouds and wintery winds. I go for a walk, get drenched in the rain and so have an excuse to sit down with a large cup of steaming hot aromatic coffee and a book I’ve been dying to read.

                                                                 

 

                                                               

          

 

The strong winds scuttled the clouds away and the sun came out again with a vengeance, shining bright. I was bathed in its glow and warmth. Just then a chariot came winging its way to my balcony, bringing along a treasure trove of stories, meant for just this type of a day and such a mood, as I was in. In the chariot came someone I would like to take the liberty to nickname, ‘Sunshine’ - if you don’t mind, Santosh Bakaya !

                                                                  

 

Earlier she was someone I admired and enjoyed reading on FB, but since meeting her at Hyderabad, I have been touched by her warm and giving nature. She is one of the most helpful and encouraging people, I have been fortunate enough to meet of late. On meeting her for the first time I was greeted so warmly with a tight warm hug- I felt I had always known her.

                                                                       

I was however, not fortunate enough to mount the chariot, for my eleven year old grand-daughter had already occupied the seat next to Santosh; the little scamp was ready to take off with her on the ‘Flights from my Terrace’, as Santosh takes off on her travels, meandering into memory lanes where her childhood still lives.

                                                                       

                                                                          

I shall be enjoying the ‘Flights’ when this young fan of Santosh's is at school and I surreptitiously manage to lay my hands on it.

 

                                                       

 

                         I am Dark, Beautiful and Extraordinary

                                                    

 

In India, especially in Punjab, being dark complexioned and ordinary is often the norm but if one is dark and attractive it seems a peculiarity, even an anomaly to some.

 Everything else on this earth should be of different colours to provide variety but a person is considered beautiful, by many, only if the skin is fair. Nature created us humans like everything else, in different shapes and shades. While acquiring material goods, we even ignore the packing altogether at times if the contents inside are to our liking. But are kinked in our outlook for human beings especially women. Being black, brown, white or yellow skinned often tilts the happiness quotient for a person right from childhood. Children can often be very cruel and hurt the dark complexioned with remarks picked up from elders at home, or because they themselves feel inferior or have been bullied by  someone else.

My elder sister, ten years elder to me, was very fair, robust looking, had hazel eyes and  long thick black hair. In other words she was the ‘ultimate beauty’ by ‘Punjabi standards’.  On the other hand I was dark (wheatish complexioned as most Indians choose to call it, probably to dilute the harshness of the word BLACK), skinny and very frail; being sickly I looked quite the opposite of my almost ‘Pathan’ looking sibling. Relatives and family friends did not refrain from commenting on the difference in our looks, often in my presence. Both our brothers were almost like me but for people they were ‘BOYS’.  At times it would hurt me a little, but I did not get disturbed for long because such matters had no importance for a small child.

Being a quiet one, engrossed in studies and interested in many other activities as well, I would always be engaged in something or the other. Thankfully times were such that children had no concept of beauty/ glitz and glamour or styles and fashion, like most grownups also of those times. Beauty was measured by features, colour of the skin and health. My mother would dress me in pants and shirts to cover me up as much as possible because I was prone to colds and coughs and Dehra-Dun winters were rather harsh. I yearned to wear frocks and skirts, but no, my knobby knees had to be covered.  However, the love showered on me by my parents and siblings, cocooned me in its warmth and only occasionally was I made aware by outsiders that I was not like my sister. She doted on me and the child in me was happy enough to enjoy that and was content to feel proud to have a ‘pretty’ sister. Probably those were the beginnings of living in denial. Somewhere in the subconscious things must have got stored to manifest as sicknesses in later life.

As I grew older I became conscious of the fact that a dark complexion was a deterrent at  some levels. During plays or dance performances in school I would be given a male role because I was ‘tall, dark and handsome’, although I was a much better dancer than the ‘females’. I never put this feeling into words or acknowledged it to myself but the feeling of being lesser to some degree, sunk deeper and deeper into my subconscious.

On joining Isabella Thoburn College, Lucknow, I had some college mates who were  beauty queens of different states or daughters of actors even. They had glamorous looks and impressive backgrounds which nurtured and promoted physical beauty. Of course, there were many others, who like me, were ordinary looking and middle class. But during adolescence one is only focused on oneself, and it was no consolation that there were others like me or lesser even in some ways. I neither had the knowledge nor resources to improve my looks.

My mother often used to say, “Youth in itself is beautiful,” that made me feel beautiful and attractive.  I would look for long in the mirror and try to observe what my best assets  were and  noticed that my eyes and hair were  my best features. I learnt by chance from other’s remarks that I was attractive. A family friend once remarked, “She’s got lovely features, how much better would she have looked if only she’d been fair.” Instead of feeling bad I was thrilled to hear that I had good features. I was a lively, chirpy and vivacious youngster. But it took me a little longer to realize that I was quite popular and endeared myself to most college mates and teachers as a person. It had nothing to do with looks. Some friends from those days are till today, very close to me. The colour of my skin has never been a hurdle in my having great friendships.

Malati, a senior at college when I was a fresher, further inspired me to polish my persona and hone my assets. She was about, 5’7″, had a very dark and  gorgeous smooth textured skin, large almond shaped  black shining eyes  and a figure like the Apsaras carved on the Khajuraho Temples. She wore a bright red kum-kum bindi, lined her eyes thickly as was the trend then, and wore natural lip gloss. Her raven black thick hair fell far below her hips in a thick, sensuous plait. When she walked down the long corridors in a  plain white organdie  sari and a long sleeved blouse she appeared like an angel from heaven , gracefully gliding like a swan with her head held high on her slender neck.  All of us wore sleeveless clothes, being the style then, and hair done according to the fashion of the times. Those who are familiar with Lucknow know that our college was (at least in our times) the nursery for fashion shows and beauty pageants. All the outstandingly good looking ones dressed the same way and looked alike. She alone stood out with her individuality and carried the simple clothes she wore because of the beauty of her inner self. Her style was enhanced and individualized by the colour of her beautiful complexion. Multifaceted and talented she was very popular and became a role model for me.

I was a gawky fifteen year old, fresh out of school. But my abilities on the stage and as a speaker won me many accolades. This boosted my self confidence and along with academic achievements I worked on grooming myself also.

 In our college days, saris were worn for classes also and I learnt to carry my cottons  with flair having a perfect figure for it. Light  coffee coloured lipstick and a long  ‘bindi’ (fashions of the 60’s) with a thick long plait, snaking down my slender neck below my waist, completed my ensemble while my large dreamy eyes lined perfectly, twinkled with mirth as I saw people attracted towards me. I would add a dash of glamour with chunky silver jewelry which offset my dark complexion. A spark inside me had been ignited. I excelled at studies, and was a winner at all extra-curricular activities too. I soon developed a look and style quite individual and was admired by many for it and even felt victorious when some expressed jealousy. The ‘ugly duckling’ had transformed!

Later in Medical College I was considered too fashionable because I frequently wore saris, for medicos then, were dull, drab studious beings only. Being stylish was considered frivolous and a sign of not being serious about studies. Even though every year, I swept all the awards as the best drama artist and speaker, many of my  teachers did not approve of me and even harassed and downgraded me. For me lesson learnt was—looks are not everything—-damned if you don’t have looks and damned, even if you do!!

As an adult I learnt that I was loved and respected for the person I was, giving love and warmth. But also learnt that the first impression on a new person was because of my total personality and the way I conducted myself. Yes, looks did matter but very briefly and superficially for some superficial people.

When a woman is educated, independent and financially secure she commands respect and dignity that empowers her. With inner conviction and strength of character she develops a charm and unsurpassable charisma, not dependent on the colour of her skin but what lies beneath it. I am proud to be dark and beautiful; secure in the knowledge of being an extraordinary human being, having lived it all; savoured and delighted at many glories and achievements and ultimately found that my real beauty lies in the love my heart holds.

 

 

 

                                           
    Episode 6                       
                                           
                                            GYPSY WANDERINGS 

                                         

                                          REACHING CLEMENT TOWN

                                                                          

                
           Sketch of my first glimpse of Summer House by my grand-daughter - SUHANI

                            

The trucks, with a crunching grind underfoot,  probably halted with a jerk and I must have slid to the edge of the cot.  My feet felt cold, so I burrowed further under the quilt. Hearing Didi’s voice, I stirred, "Come on Guddi - wake up- let’s get down- we’ve reached.” She was shaking my shoulder and I whimpered, not understanding what was going on.Thoughts of the journey, were too far recessed in my sleep fogged little brain.  With one eye peeping out of the quilt I tried to look out.

Chains clanged and the truck shuddered as the boards at the back were flung open and shadows, crossing and recrossing in the moonlight moved around, as the drivers and orderlies tumbled out of the trucks.

 Picking me up, she wrapped me in a shawl and carried me to the edge of the truck, where one of the orderlies downloaded me. Knuckling my eyes, I tried to look around. I was dreaming and was in fairyland. Then someone stood me on the ground; as I wobbled, trying to balance on the rough and uneven surface, Bhaji held me, keeping me from falling. Elder brothers can be a blessing, till they grow up and start bossing around!

So, what does a five year old remember? It would be difficult to put all the fragments of memory together, though I know that it would make a pretty picture if I succeed. There is so much of memory, from such a long time ago, mixed with subsequent layers of memories about so many people. Yes, difficult it might be, but I shall still try, because I am tempted by the possible outcome.    

 I blinked my eyes wondering where I was.

A vast expanse of grass, around ten feet high, rose all around us. Topped with silvery, feathered heads, their shimmer enhanced by the moonlight, it swayed with the wind, creating a rustling sound, which was both musical and surreal. Short spells of palpable silence interrupted the rustling.  Was I in Wonderland like Alice?– I wondered, feeling
dwarfed as the grass swamped around us. It was all I could see, from where I stood.

The dogs sniffed and gave low growls, sensing strange surroundings. Suddenly, a loud, eerie, mourning howl tore through the quiet night air followed by a series of many more. I shuddered as Bhaji held me closer still.

“Jackals,” said someone.

 Myriads of tiny lights glimmered in the long grass, as also in the flowery bushes- hundreds and thousands of glow worms, their magic lanterns twinkling, confirmed my belief that I was in fairyland. The rhythmic chirping of a cicada, punctuated by intermittent silences, provided a regular beat to the music played by the wind, as it wove its way through the rustling grass.

In the centre of a rectangular plot stood ‘the bungalow’ - a building of sorts, with bricks and mortar and other construction material scattered all over; bamboo poles and planks shuttered around it. A gravel pathway ran in front of it, running backwards on the sides;  some rose bushes and night jasmines grew on one side, lending a heavenly fragrance, wafting with the wind
                            
 Two yellow lights with two legs each came swinging towards us like two pendulums, from the back of the building. Two ‘maalis’ (gardeners) carrying kerosene lanterns, came trotting, their dhoti clad legs outlined against the glowing yellow lights. They were bundled in heavy coarse blankets with monkey caps covering their heads, all but the eyes.

They touched Mummy’s feet, greeting her with a respectful ‘Namastey, Memsahib.’

' Namastey Bhaiya, kaise ho tum log?' (How are you?)

'Theek hain Beebi ji.' ( We are alright.)

'Kya naam hain tumhare?' ( What are your names?)

'Mera naam Ram Din hai aur iska Damru,' spoke the tall and thin one. Damru who

actually resembled a damru ( a small hand drum) in shape and size, was a short stocky

fellow as  broad as he was tall or rather short ! . 

 The dogs started sniffing and growling slowly at first then barking ferociously, chafing at their leashes but the orderly held them at bay.

From a pile of bricks close to where we stood, came a faint scratching sound, like an insect's wings grating on a rough surface – then a glistening black shadow, slithered out from beneath the pile, with a menacing clicking sound, vanished into the grass, sliding along its edge.

This couldn’t be fairyland!

Frightened by the snake, Didi immediately took charge of us. As we hurriedly stumbled and tumbled over mounds of bricks, sand and other rubble, Bhaji held on tightly to my hand- was he too as scared as I was ?
Damru guided us into one of the rooms, leaving a lantern on a window sill.

We used the makeshift bathroom of which a detailed description I will give elsewhere!

Inside the room was a tad bit better; the cold was less biting than in the open, but it still was freezing cold.

The doors and windows were gaping spaces in four concrete walls- they had no ‘chowkats’(jambs), leave alone glass panes or door panels. The roofs of three rooms were dripping, as they had been laid just that day.

The drivers and the others were stretching their limbs, stiff from the long journey.

Mummy immediately took charge before they lost the tempo, ordering them to start unloading the trucks and take everything inside ‘the bungalow’, placing each item methodically, to avoid double labor. The few items of furniture which amounted to four charpoys(string cots), two cupboards, four chairs and a small study table were quickly unloaded and kept together, whilst all the trunks and boxes containing clothes and other personal stuff went into another space.

The kitchen paraphernalia in wooden crates went into the kitchen, which was a large four walled, square, door-less structure, almost as large as today’s one bedroom flats; it was built apart, about ten feet behind the house.

One room which had a dry roof, was large enough to accommodate four ‘charpoys’ (string cots) on which mattresses were immediately laid, with blankets over them, covered by thick bed clothes called ‘khes’, which are woven with thread spun on a spinning wheel. I hated them as I found them too coarse and would feel itchy at the very mention of them. But all I itched for that night (or was it already morning!), was sleep!

 The men worked fast, breathing heavily out of their mouths, as puffs of warm breath spewed out and froze in the air like small misty clouds; long legged shadows reaching and receding as they carried the remaining pieces of luggage inside. One orderly nailed tarpaulins on the two doors and bedcovers on the two large windows; these Mummy had thoughtfully carried separately, to be available on arrival. Uncle had already informed her of the climatic conditions in the last postcard, received just before we left Meerut.

Winters are harsh in Dehra Dun and the cold still pushed its way in gusts, with the wind flapping the improvised doors and window panes, making mournful whistling sounds. Added to this was the moisture oozing out of the freshly plastered walls, permeating everything with the smell of wet cement. For a floor, there was a layer of gravel mixed with bits of broken brick.

There was no semblance of a home here.

The shadows cast by the kerosene lanterns added to the eeriness and our own monstrous shadows moving on the roof scared me. Expecting more snakes and prowling animals creeping into the room we stood shivering and frightened.

 Didi hastily shoved us under the heavy quilts, telling us to sleep, keeping our shoes under our mattresses; I could not understand this odd order but found it quite funny. She herself crept under one quilt, cradling Kaka in her arms, to warm the bed for him.

Mummy was supervising the unloading of the trucks, her small frame wrapped in a blanket over all the woolens she was already wearing. This diminutive little woman was a powerhouse of energy and had set the men to unload and make a place for themselves to sleep in the kitchen, before she relaxed a hold on things and came inside herself.

The 'maalis' had taken charge of the cattle, taking them to a shed at the back of the land. Soon their wives, Laxmi and Durga, came with a brass bucket of hot milk and some brass tumblers.

I was delighted, for nothing makes me happier than a hot glass of freshly boiled milk, with a thick layer of frothy cream floating on top. The aroma is enough to spike and satiate my need and greed for this, my favorite ‘comfort food’, as it is called today! I gulped the hot sweet milk and as it trickled down my throat, I could feel the warmth spreading in my body, reaching my tiny tippy toes.

Comforted by the warmth, I gripped the metal glass warming my frozen hands. My head nodding and my eyes drooping, I was at last ready for la-la land and some dreaming !

                            
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 EPISODE 5

                                         

                                             GYPSY WANDERINGS

                                                
                                           SHIFTING TO CLEMENT TOWN

                           

 

As preparations to move to Dehra Dun started, the house became a hive of activity with orderlies helping my mother pack some belongings, that were to go with us. The rest packed in black trunks or strong wooden crates, with Daddy’s name stenciled in white, in the army style, were to be sent later, booked by train. We understood nothing but enjoyed the presence of additional manpower in the house, doing the sorting and sifting, packing and wrapping, handling and hammering, and finally keeping the packed boxes in different lots. There was more freedom  for Mummy hardly had time to keep a check on us. The only ones disturbed by the army of workers spread all over the premises, were the monkeys, who got lesser opportunities to raid the kitchen or tease us.  

 For many days Mummy and Daddy discussed  the mode of transport, for the cartage of luggage and personnel to a remote place in an unknown countryside, where conveyance was almost non–existent and man power scant. Before long the day of departure arrived.

Clement Town is about 7- 8 miles short of Dehra–Dun, going from Saharanpur onwards. So, Mummy worked it out this way, that if she travelled by train with so much luggage, one cook, two dogs, three orderlies and four children, along with five heads of cattle, counting the latest baby in the family-a calf born a week earlier to Gori, the buffalo, she would have found it impossible to arrange conveyance to travel backwards to Clement Town, with so much in tow, at the unearthly hour of 3am, when the train arrived at Dehra- Dun station.

 So, three civilian trucks were hired. Must have appeared odd to others, who wondered why an army officer, being the commanding officer of a transport company, hired civilian trucks, when he had around three hundred army trucks under his command. But that is the type of man my father was.

Mangala the cow,  Gori the buffalo, their calves, along with two orderlies, rode in one truck. It took a strong broad, sloping wooden platform and many men to get the cattle into the truck where their bodies and legs were tied in such a way, that they would not slip or roll with the movement of the truck. Two orderlies squeezed into the remaining space somehow.The second truck had the essential household belongings, along with the two dogs - Rana and Whiskey, with a third orderly to look after them and keep them company. The third truck was for the family and the cook, along with some food  for the journey in a large hot case and two string cots on which we were huddled under quilts. Safely ensconced in a large basket and covered with another larger one, was a hen sitting on the eggs she was hatching since a week!

I vaguely recall travelling on a cold moonlit night in a truck. Daddy stayed behind as he was still posted at Meerut; besides Mummy did not feel the need to have him around to help her or perhaps to hamper her ! 

 Our truck, uncovered on top, was kept in the middle, because Mummy wanted to be able to keep an eye on both the others. That probably was also the reason to risk taking her small children in an open truck. I wonder if it is possible today, for an army officer’s wife in her early thirties, to be travelling alone in the middle of a cold wintry night, with four little children and most of her worldly possessions in this manner, a long distance, to an unknown destination.

The journey from Saharanpur onwards through hilly terrain, with tinkling streams flowing through deep gorges on the left, and steep hills, heavy with dense dark forests on the right side, was quite an adventure for us. Mummy sat on a cane chair with Kaka snug in her lap, fast asleep under a thick quilt.  My elder sister, Didi and elder brother Bhaji and I, snuggled under the other quilt, on one of the cots.

 Looking up, I was fascinated to see the dark blue sky, spangled with millions of stars, twinkling clear and bright, even as the moon shone brighter. I was thrilled to discover the Great Bear and some others, which my grandfather used to point out to us, during our after dinner walks. But soon I was bored, watching the same sky, stretching everywhere infinitely, while my neck got stiff trying to look upwards.  Soon I wriggled out, for I realized I was missing the changing panorama all round. For me it was high voltage drama! Bundled in a blanket, I sat on a low stool munching on homemade snacks, with my eyes taking in the passing landscape. I held on tightly to the sides of the truck as it jostled me around. When it negotiated the sharp hairpin bends, I would bend too, pretending to be driving the truck. Initially, I found it fun and kept singing rock-a-bye-baby in a loop, but soon tired of that also, for I could feel my bones rattling.

When an oncoming vehicle came from the opposite side the two vehicles would slow down to manoeuvre passage on a road, barely broad enough for two trucks. Every time this happened I clutched the sides of the truck harder still, my knuckles white, scared of the two vehicles colliding. Adding to my fright, was a clucking sound, every time the truck slowed. After some time I realized it was the hatching hen-probably sensing the danger to her yet to be born off springs.

The moonlight shone on the silvery streams below, making spectacular pictures but as it sneaked through the branches of the overhanging trees on the steep mountainside to the right,it created numerous magical illusions. Occasionally a fox or rabbit crossing the road would get blinded by the headlights of the trucks and stand paralyzed.  When the truck drivers slowed down to let them pass, I peered through the small window cut between the driver’s seat and the body of the truck. I could see their eyes, two fiery red embers in the dark, which I found terribly scary. But later, I would stand in front of the mirror, shining a torch on my face, to see if my eyes also blazed similarly! Needless to say, I was sorely disappointed, and in the bargain got a proper scolding from Mummy about ruining my eyes! I did not speak to Didi, for two days, for having tattled.

The orderlies were tempted to kill the rabbits but Mummy did not want to stop anywhere, for anything, wanting to reach Clement Town safely with her brood, as fast as possible.

Bhaji, my elder brother, who was around ten at that time, was a great fibber and could spin many a yarn out of nothingness. The journey was a great opportunity for him to showcase his prowess, as he had the undivided attention of his audience, which haplessly had no other choice, but to listen to him.  One moment he pointed out an imaginary lion along with its cubs and another time, a couple of large black bears out of the shadowy, dark thick trees up on the hillside or the road on the other side. He sure managed to scare me, for my own imagination was no less fertile. Didi of course scoffed at him while the cook, like me, was another gullible victim.

Kaka was fast asleep and Mummy must have been very tired too; with him clinging to her, she too snuggled under a quilt, on the other cot. The cook clad in a thick army coat,  under an equally thick army blanket, lay huddled on a thick mattress, snoring away. Being the only one awake, I was not only scared but chilled as well, in spite of my coat and muffler under the blanket, so I also crept back under the quilt with Mummy.

I don't know how long I slept, but I must have slept soundly, as I do not remember anything further about the journey.

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...to be contd.                                     

   Episode 4  -                                
                          GYPSY WANDERINGS

                                NAUCHANDI KA MELA

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                                                       THE WELL OF DEATH

                         

               
                

                
......Our Uncle was commissioned to start the construction of a ‘kothi,’ as small bungalows were then called.

However, some hurdles stood in the way. My grandparents did not want to accompany us. They were attached to their home in the village and spent only a month or so with us, every year. Although my grandmother had not treated my father well as a child, she was very loving towards the grandchildren. I looked forward to her visits because of the delicious , beaten silver foil covered  ‘pedas’ she used to bring for us from the village ‘halwai’, packed in a colorful cardboard box. (Plastic was nowhere on the planet then!)

The night of a terrible storm, when lightning struck a dead tree, standing near the outer wall, my grandmother insisted it was a bad omen and an inauspicious time to start building a new house.

Daddy however brushed aside her misgivings and plans to move to Dehra Dun were drawn up. The bungalow was still in the initial stages, but Mummy wanted to be there to supervise work herself.
From that bungalow onwards, I do not remember any time in her life when she was not getting some construction or the other done, up to her death at 85. It is surprising that she did not become a construction contractor herself, so fond was she of being present on the construction site and supervising all the work herself!  She would sit on a ‘moorha’ watching each worker, when she was not walking around, getting the best out of them. She loved the smell of freshly mixed cement and wet bricks and would supervise each step personally. Woe to the laborer who walked or worked slowly or the mason who set a brick out of line!

Before my grandparents went back to the village, they were treated a visit to the much awaited local annual fair- ‘Nauchandi Ka Mela.’ It was held in a very large ‘maidan’ and attracted large crowds from the town itself and villages around.

The small town of Meerut took on a vivacity of its own for the whole month that the ‘mela’ carried on. Spread over acres it catered to all types of entertainment and fun. Bright lights, loud speakers and the glitzy glamour of all types of novelties for sale along with delicious food and sweets, attracted young and old, as the crowds milled to it. Men, women and children came in droves with families and friends, dressed in colorful clothes,out to enjoy themselves. Some came from far off places on foot, by bus, cycling or even on bullock carts.  Raising clouds of dust, they thronged around stalls of eatables and entertainment mostly, while children cajoled their parents into buying balloons and balls that were flung in the air and shone fluorescent in the darkness of the night.

 Mummy being a great sport, always knew how to keep her children and elders happy and sat us down to a feast of 'chaat' and something I was drooling for - 'jalebis' ! The golden yellow, syrupy sweets were my favorite and I had enough to fill my need and my greed. She herself loved both - it was a good thing Daddy wasn't with us or else he would never have allowed us to eat by the roadside like this.

                                         

                              

                                                             

      Although I was too small to remember many details, I have a memory of stalls of eatables vying for space with those selling curios. Bawdy film songs on loud speakers mingled with the loud raucous voices of hawkers as well as those shouting  to attract people to certain shows.

   
       I trudged along with the elders, my tiny hand held tightly by Didi, my sister. Kaka, my younger brother was happily perched on the shoulders of our cook, who, Mummy thought, deserved an outing too. My elder brother, Bhaji, walked along, on the lookout for things not made at home, like the ice balls drenched in many colors and flavors.                                             

 

Stalls with colorful goods for sale, stood in rows, decorated with buntings and balloons ; gas lamps strung in rows, enhanced the light of a solitary, although large electric bulb. One particular stall with colorful bangles and artificial jewelry sparkled and glistened in the neon lights and my girlie heart  yearned to buy them all but  didn’t ask, knowing well enough I’d be told I could get them once I grew up! The fetish stayed put for a lifetime and even now I love visiting ‘melas’ and ‘bajariyas’ , feasting my eyes on such baubles, though having no use for them.

                        


But another stall caught my mother's attention where an old Chinese man was making toys and figures of plasticene(called clay by children today).There were some of historical and religious figures, humans, animals, flowers and other things at random. She liked a cycle which the old man made in a few minutes . It decorated the mantelpiece in our drawing room for long, till the clay dried so much that it became friable and started crumbling.

                                                           

While different rides for children and adults were fun, I enjoyed the mini circus in which the hall of magic mirrors made us squeal with laughter, seeing the distorted faces and figures of others, till we saw our own. But got scared, clinging to my sister when seeing a girl with two heads and another one whose head was visible but body wasn't  and yet spoke normally.

                                 MAUT KA KUAN or THE WELL OF DEATH’

                    

        

                                                     

But, the high point of the evening was watching the dare devil act called ‘Maut ka Kuan’ or the ‘Well of Death.’

A young girl in a glossy black leather jacket and tight pants, embellished with shiny and frilly trimmings, descended into a huge circular pit in the ground into which was sunk a metallic cage. The upper half was open. She mounted a motorcycle which stood at the bottom of the cage. With a deafening spluttering and booming she started the engine, revving it up and slowly wheeling it into motion going around in concentric circles; the crowd whistled and hooted and some watched spell bound, wide eyed and gaping.

I myself stood open mouthed in fear and fascination as the speed kept getting faster and faster while the machine took bigger circles in its stride, at every round moving up higher in the round cage, in a jaw dropping act. My head kept spinning along with the bike, trying to see it, but it soon became one fuzzy, blurring movement and my head like a spinning top. Then, reaching the highest point, it started moving downwards, gradually slowing and coming to a halt at the bottom. I stood rooted in awe, dumb struck and admiring. I had met my role model and with the steely determination of a five year old I made up my mind to join the circus as early as possible!                                                                                           

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